Oh ex , oh ex. aren’t you just so funny. 

Saying you miss me so much “its not even funny”

and etc.. 

but then when i say it back .. just to say it back . 

you say .. so stop playin wit me and say fuk ya bf then .. 

and i say.. whats that gonna do . 

and you say nvm . 

so i ask him if he just said that to get me to say yes .

and he says no, its because he really does. 

oh .. u wanna see me tomorrow now ? 

I AM NOT GOING TO FUCKING SEE YOU .

i will not let myself get like i did last time. 

because i probably would. 

if im going to go out of my way to see someone, it will be my boyfriend.

so you know what . idc. go fuck yourself . d.a 

you are the biggest piece of shit ever .

i am so glad i have my fucking boyfriend.

i am like the luckiest girl ever to have him in my life at this moment . 

cuz this would do me no good. never has .. never will. 

and idk how else i would have gotten away.

sometimes you start to wonder why you loved someone so much in the first place. 

you tell me lies and then you make it harder for me.. to realize that you’re actually drifting farther from me // i know you’re the right one but maybe we just met at the wrong time? // im reminiscing on all the things we used to do. am i in love with you .. or am i just used to you . i know you don’t see me the way i see you , we’ve grown so far apart // you see me when im frustrated , feeling all alone, when i should’ve known , should’ve been strong. now its time to say goodbye.. its been way too long and im not that strong . i can’t , i can’t do it , i cant. cuz i see in your eyes you’re not by my side cuz im not good at faking and you know i can’t take it . i need love, i need love. 

that entire song seems pretty relevant actually . there are a lot that are. 

he needs to get the fuck away from me .. forever. seriously. 

stop wasting my time. 

when he first texted me i was like lol hes fucking with my head uuuurg . 

and then i started laughing for like 2 minutes straight.

and now im laughing so hard again . so so hard . i can’t even breathe . 

My head is hurting, my zygomatic bone is hurting lollll, and i don’t care.

I’m laughing and laughing and laughing. 

why though ? i don’t fucking know. But it feels good . 

im not going to dwell on it any more tonight either. 

I am going to keep talking to my boyfriend, and then call him . 

and pretend it never even happened. . better yet. 

how about i pretend WE never even happened. goodnight : ) xo .